The Self-Saboteur is just trying to protect you from the outside world, to keep you safe and quiet and still, because if you don’t make noise you don’t attract attention, criticism or rejection. You cannot fail at something you have not begun, so its easier not to make a start.
It takes a classic line of attack – ‘who do you think you are’, ‘you’re not good enough’, or ‘you’re too much’. Maybe you compare your work to others, and think – “I am only an amateur – just playing at stuff”. But don’t listen to these words in your head. We have power over the internal dialogue, if we choose. We can firmly tell our saboteur to piss off, thank you very much. And then we can tell ourselves that we are invaluable and we have something of value to give.
Please remember this: those people you compare yourself to, they have very likely been through exactly the same process, the same fears, as you – but they are also likely to have been working on their journey for many more years. Things of wisdom and beauty take time to achieve. Also remember, success is always relative. Just getting going sometimes, takes more courage than applying to have your work published at the end of it all.
You are equally as wonderful as the next person, by design – and of course what you have to offer is unique. You might argue that it has all been done before, and yes it has. BUT – nobody has done it like you can do it, whatever it is you want to do. If you pour your self into your work, you will create something that is yours alone.
Also remember, that this is a process. When the masters first began their work, even they learnt from masters themselves…so while you are learning, draw from the vast, endless history of master craftspeople gone before you. Then take what you have learned and add that new ingredient, a little or a lot of you, according to taste.
So, take a deep breath. Begin. Create.
*Endless gratitude to Alexandra from The Flourish Initiative for this beautiful piece of inspiration